Showing Myself

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Writing makes me cry sometimes. At least the words I don’t show many people. I haven’t gotten halfway heartfelt until my eyes are worn red from the cathartic energy flowing from them. Those are the darkest writings, the ones that I save for days when I can console myself and just push through. After the madness of words stringing through my brain, pushing at my temples, painfully true words are my worst enemy and my best friend. Not all the tears are sad. I’ve cried because of fond memories floating above my soul. Because I miss the good old days and because I’m excited to relive them.
Wiring usually makes me smile. Always, that is the outcome. It feels so empowering to know that your thoughts make sense. They hit words that flow and explore all possibilities. And it is beautiful.

Diligently writing for you, Writingdilegently, Angelina Rosa

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Showing Myself: entry 8

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For a long while, college wasn’t on my radar. Just enjoy today right now as a kid. That was my motto. I don’t really need college for what I want to do. That was my thought. College degrees aren’t garenteeing that you’ll get a job. That was my logic.
I’m going to be honest, those are still things I think today. But I also see college in a different way. I want it for the education, not the degree. I want to go for the experience. I like learning. I like it a whole lot. So why should I halt my education because my artistic side doesn’t actually “need it”?
When asked I would say “sure I’m going to college” because I thought that was what everyone expects from a girl with a 4.0 GPA. But it didn’t feel like me.
I started taking this one college class and woah… It changed my perspective. I found out that college is a lot more fun than highschool if you play your cards right- that is, I mean, if you really want to be there. I found out that philosophy excites me and that I can major in just about anything. And that also excites me.
One more year of highschool after this year, then I’ll be on my way to a better chapter of my education.

Diligently writing for you, Writingdilegently, Angelina Rosa.

Showing Myself: Entry 7

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I love the power words have on the world. I see myself as a quiet game changer as all writers and artists are. My audience is small (though I appreciate every single one of you) but I know that a little goes a long way. A single word can drop from a mouth and it spreads like wildfire. Words can cross languages without being changed. Words connect people. Written and spoken words are powerful, so I would hope that more people would let them out. Its not in our nature to want to be silenced, and it’s most certainly not in mine.

I only speak one language well, but I love the feeling of hearing new ones. The passion supersedes the definitions. Languages are easy for kids to learn because its association not grammer that they think about. And I associate sounds with people and voices with power.

Diligently writing for you, Writingdilegently, Angelina Rosa.

Showing Myself: Entry 6

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I think about people as individuals not groups. We all have our own things and our own experiences to bring to the table. Your age shouldn’t decide how much you are a participant in deciding things for yourself and the rest of the world. Teenagers should vote because we are the ones who will have to deal with these rulers longer. We should make choices for ourselves within reason because we ARE people too. The ratings on movies are backwards because people have forgotten that the world isn’t rated pg. If we were taught what’s real from the beginning, we wouldn’t be so lost now.

Diligently writing for you, Writingdilegently, Angelina Rosa

Showing Myself: Entry 5

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I believe that people are morally good.
And that has been my downfall proven countless times
In a short breath of life.
But I can’t shake the fact that there is still good in the many.
I’ve been pulled apart by those I’ve put my trust into and
Yet I keep placing my trust within new hopefuls.
I feel like the things you see in the world are only equal to the things you assume are within yourself.

Diligently writing for you, Writingdilegently, Angelina Rosa

Showing Myself: Entry 4

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I’ve taken the time to appreciate my body
My own curves and curls and marks and scars
All the little things on me.
I’ve come to know that they don’t make me me.
What makes me me are the feelings inside my heart and the thoughts swimming in my brain.
I don’t care about the numbers on a scale.
I care about the smile on my face and the joy in my eyes.
I love what I have and how I will change.
And that path to acceptance….
It has been a battle at the least.

Writing diligently for you, Writingdilegently, Angelina Rosa

Showing Myself: Entry 3

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A question I consider a lot is “Where do you see yourself in 10 years?” At my age, I can and still accept a decade of time as a strange and far out notion. 10 years ago I was just starting school. Time itself is a crazy notion, but I’d like to dwell on that in another moment.

I can never just think of the “where” aspect of this question. I go deeper. I look at the physical description, the emotional, the educational, the career, the love.

In 10 years i will be 26 going on 27. I see myself out of school and full of knowledge. I see myself with a brain full of experiences and happy moments. I see myself with more than a few tattoos. Things symbolic to me as a person. Things that don’t have to make sense to anyone but myself.

I hope to see myself in love. Maybe not with my “forever partner” but at least with someone I can have close to me. As I’ve gotten older, my love for people has grown. I’ve fallen in a soft love with the world already and I hope I fall deeper in it.

I want to say that I see myself writing. Maybe not every day but often enough. And I do. I can’t see a reason why written words wouldn’t be in my life.

I see myself doing beautiful artwork on other people’s skin. That’s what I really want to do. It’s not about the “go against the grain concept”. For me its about the art and the ability to change a persons life in a moment. I love art and I love making people smile.

I see myself on the edge of the world loving my life.

 

Diligently writing for you, WritingDilegently, Angelina Rosa